Chit Chat on Phone -- Baby and Mama :D

My son :)
One and two months old and me started having phone conversations! Can you believe it!
Mama I did this ,, it was so fun,, when can we go to city center magic planet?,,
where are u?,, when will u come? ,, Nooooooooooo bibi i wont give u the phone, i want to talk to mama .. mamaaaaaaaaaaaa,,

he says all that and much more,, offcourse all in his own language ,, which i don't really understand !! But i imagine that those would be his words .. :)

the nice thing thu is ,, when i talk he listens! He wont be talking in between and he wont be ignoring what i say,, he is really a gentleman :) a wee one thu :)

Today when i called, he just woke up and run to phone - as my mum told me - and started talking to me: mama $%^& %$# ##@ &* = i just woke up :)

I am so lucky to have my son,, such a wonderful blessing,, and such a nice soul running here and there ,, sharing smiles, giggles and lots and lots of fun :)

Love Hannoodiii oxoxoxo

Mixed feelings, Confusing thoughts!!!!!!

As i told u in my first post.. today is my BREAK day !!Am too busy to be busy,, my mind is busy with my husband (7amoodi) leaving.. and they say if u think of two things at the same time, then u r a lier! .. and i am faaaaar away from being a lier ;)

He just called me : am leaving in 15 minutes..will switch off my phone..

Somehow that line scared me! for a second i felt as if this is the last time am talking to him.. am even scared to write this.. but i think am just being so dramatic and deep down my mind and heart thinking of all the bad things that might happen!

Donno why i keep always feeling scared! always scared something bad will happen to my husband! Why not thinking about myself?! my son? my mum, dad, sis, freinds, rest of family.. why always my husband?!

Is it coz really sth - god forbids- will happen and am feeling it now?, or is it coz i love him the most????!!!!!

i realy dont know! but then same mind tells me that: it is coz maybe at the moment he is the one who shows u in every way in his way that he loves u the most! maybe u feel most loved by him.. maybe he makes u most happy.. and thats why u r more scared about him than anyone else!

To that, i again ask my mind: what about my son then? If i dont love my mama, papa more or same as my husband! what about my son? i also dont love him more or same as my husband? do i really love my husband more than anyone?
Again my mind answers me: U get irritated most from ur husband too .. on small things sometimes u get irritated n u show it..but with ur parents u try as much as u can to control urself,, same thing with ur son; u get so tired but u manage somehow.. but with 7amoodi u dont think twice! so what can you say about that...?

Me says: am confused! but one thing for sure,, i need to get back on track , need to always get back to god ,, pray to him as i used to.. for sure all these bad feelings are coz my prayers are not as good as they used to be ,, i mean du3aa and not actual saying of prayers,,

i didnt read quran for so long! thats for sure another reason for why bad feelings and scary thoughts surrounding me ..

Although i just started blogging, somehow both my first and 2nd posts made me feel beta and realise what i want and need to do ..

Now, going to pray ... :)

My Start ..

Just started ...

This is my first time blogging! .. donno why i chose today to start blogging.. i came across blogs long time ago and at that time i thought of creating one for myself but then i didnt,

a freind of mine asked me to register and participate .. n for some reason i didnt get a chance then,, Today thu i feel like doing nothing else but taking a break! ..I am at work now by the way! and ya i do feel guilty thinking to take a break ..WHOLE DAY!! at work! but somehow ..somedays ..you come to work feeling liek NAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH ..
today is my day to feel so!

Maybe coz my husband will be leaving today to some far isolated island ..and ,, i might talk about his expereince in another time.. but the feeling of saying good bye and knowing that today when i go back home, i wont see him there.. makes me feel like crying and just sleeping whole day, or isolating myself away from people, sitting in my room, watching TV ,, and just get lost in my imagination!

Will write soon again when i am bit more cherred up :)

Taaa Taaa for now ;)