FerreroRoche

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

She said: i feel more bonded to u after getting married..

Finally she got married :) in a wedding that was more than wonderfull.. she looked beautiful and elegant .. and her husband was just as nice :) ..

to our surrprise her wedding and henna was full of ppl who attended with full happiness and who enlarged our happiness by being there .. her freinds rocked ,, they simply were the essence of the parties,, with their differnet style dances,, and i guess i rocked too in one of the dance items hehehe,, but that only coz maybe alot of the guests didnt really know themselvs how to dance like indian movies heheheh,,

Now back to my sis ..
Her life long dream came true and inshallah hopefully it proves to be a fairy tale kinda of a life and marrige.. Am talking about my lil sis .. she was always thinking that she will never meet her other half, that no one is meant to be made to be 'just for her'.. i must admit that she had alot of admirers and she also was involved with someone she thought who loved her as much as she loved him but things didnt go as expected so maybe that also made her more pestimistic and depressed..

If u read my previous posts ,, u will know the kind of relationship we share or at least i feel we share :) ..

Now to what made me write this post .. yesterday at maghrib time i saw my sis the first time that day ,, coz when i came from work she was in her room with her husboo and then i went to see my father in law and then when back i saw my sis.. she had a big smile on when she saw me .. i do get that from her from time to time,, so i was ok :)
then she grabbed my dress and started walking beside me like a baby! and i am like a mama hehehe,, i walked like 3adi or even faster then normal so that she gets the feeling that i am pulling her coz she was still holding my dress hehe,, i was joking :)
then we went to our mama room and sat on her bed,, and there she said:

' i feel more bonded to u, since i got married i feel more closer to u and i want to be more near by you'

when i heared those words, and to be honest, i was not much surrprised,, coz i did hear it from her but not the exact words but i did hear that ' i love u' kind of meaning alot frm her but then fights happen and same attitude goes on; the no respect attitude, so i was 3adi when i heared that.. i felt i should hug her or be happy or u know show some excitment but i didnt and couldnt to be honest ,, i mean i was so happy to hear that offcourse but i was not excited coz i was like yaa just words but actions say sth else!
And i said to her: "Oh yallah good but would be more nicer if u just stop fighting with me!"
i felt guilty and scared when i said that,, scared that those words woudl cause another fight! scared to be honest with her,, coz honesty with her alot of times led to fights,, but to my surrprise ,, she replied: " i will not fight with u anymore"
These words,, i have been waiting AGES and ages to hear ,, honestly ,, i wanted to hear them from her,, for so long,, i wanted to tell her stop fighting with me,, i told her that,, but always i got an argument as a reply,, for the first time in my life,, i heared a simple line ,, simple comforting answer ,, whther its gona happen or not ,, i dont care,, it just soothes my heart and cools it to just hear it from her,, to just feel for a sec that she will try ,, that she admits to something wrong,, that she accepted a word of truth from my mouth even though it was like pointing to a negative attitude of hers..
sad thing was that when i told her : dont figh twith me anymore,, i was not looking into her eyes,, coz after she said i feel more bonded ot u first time i smiled n felt awkward not to be able to u know give her the reaction she expects ,, so i immediatly acted busy with sth else and stood up and my back was facing her,, so when i said just dont fight anymore with me ,, i was saying it without lookign at her,, and hence i couldnt see her eyes when she said i wont fight anymore,, with u ,,
aaaaaaah i wish if i was lookign at her eyes that moment,, that exact moment,, i have been waiting for this ,, and finally i heared it ,,
i was so happy after that ,, and so full of energy ,,

then we went ahead choosign the outfits for her honey moon trip ,,she tried each n every one of them n i was giving her my view of whther to take it or not,, she gained some weight so alot of tops were tight a bit ,, i brough tsome of my skirts and tops and we decided on all outfits,, on what she would wear on day of travel (tomorrow inshallah )

I was so excited ,, and i am still excited that she is going for her honey moon trip
coz i knw how wonderfull its gona be inshallah ,, n inshallah thy come back safe n full of happiness,,

am happy :)